Keep The Baby
As we grow and evolve, we rise to new energetic levels at
which things have to change in order for us to keep spiraling up. It seems as
if the old ways no longer fit us, even when they once provided great support
and were once a great passion for us. I have learned in these times to pause
and get really clear about what to let go of, what to keep, and what to
Once when I was preparing to go to India for a three-week
training, my mentor gave me advice that has helped me remain clear about this
My partner, Andre, has a lovely aquarium full of fish. He feeds them twice a day and enjoys watching them chase after their food. He talks to them and checks to make sure they are all healthy and happy.
Last summer, the big catfish disappeared. At first we though he might be hiding inside the artificial hollow rock structure. But he was not coming out to eat, not even when Andre tried to coax him out with shrimp pellets, his favorite food. There was no sign of him. After a few weeks without seeing him, Andre concluded that he had died and that the other fish had perhaps eaten him.
Meet Pearl. She is one of my greatest teachers. Trust me when I tell you that it was not easy getting her to sit still for this head-shot. She reminds me to be active, to play often, and to maintain high levels of enthusiasm in all that I do. I recently gave her an almost-empty
peanut-butter jar. I thought she would enjoy licking out the remains. As you
can see, Pearl has a smashed-flat face. Her
tongue is not terribly long and it does not hang out of her mouth, not even when she pants. I figured she
would maybe be able to get to the peanut butter in the top quarter of the jar.
I remember being fascinated in Sunday school about the magical star
that led the three wise men to the Christ child. The story did not make sense
to my conscious mind—how could a star lead the way? But somehow the three kings
followed this blaze of light that appeared out of the darkness. And it guided them
to discover a birth that was precious and radiant and filled with hope.
Ever since my earliest memories, I have seen a bright white
light inside my head when I close my eyes. It is not there all of the time.
This morning I am filled with gratitude for my soul path. Holidays are a time when we experience flashes of memory about our past: what we did on this same day so many years ago, who we were with, what we were feeling at the time. For me this mini life-review serves as a reminder of how far I have come and how much I have changed. I am counting my blessings and there are so many blessings to count.
I remember many Thanksgivings when gratitude was not so easily within my reach.
Do you ever get stuck in wanting things to be perfect—so stuck
that you stop sharing your gifts with others? I recently had a huge lesson around this which I
would like to share with you.
A couple of months ago, I was approached by a newspaper
reporter who wanted to do a story about me for the Arkansas Times. His mother had heard me speak at a Conscious
Awareness Network meeting and she recommended me to him as a subject for a
column about people with interesting personal stories.
I invite you to join me this winter solstice in a process of deepening. It is time to go deep within to the recesses of soul that are always present but rarely experienced.
- What truths are we hiding from ourselves?
- What inner resources have we overlooked?
- How can we go deeper into the light of who we are?
Some powerful words have been playing in my consciousness this week. They provide keys for the answers to these questions.
The first word isContentmentwhich contains the word
Making Authentic Choices
In the last few months, I have had many students and clients coming to me with the same dilemma. They are agonizing over whether or not they should take a certain class or training or series of sessions or initiations that another teacher or healer strongly recommended to them. The people I am referring to seem to be in pain as they contemplate the decision to take the recommended offering, or not. The idea of the particular class or offering has become an albatross around their neck—an unbearable burden.
Have you Kissed Your Shadow Lately
Today is the Autumnal Equinox, one of two days each year
when we experience equivalent amounts of darkness and light. It is a great time
for us to acknowledge the coexisting darkness and light within us as we center
ourselves between these seemingly opposing forces.
In 1997 I had a three day out-of-body experience that
occurred spontaneously while I was praying to Blessed Mother Mary for Divine
I was in my kitchen this afternoon when my guides said, "Balance a broom. Do it now!" So I did.
Pretty cool. I had seen other people do this on or around the equinox but I had never been able to do it myself. Then today, as if by magic, I placed the broom on its end and before I could even try to balance it, it was as if a magnet pulled it out of my hands into the exact position.
I was so excited that I called my friends and asked them to try it.